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My insomnia is back. Got 4 hours of sleep last night and have been lying in bed for two hours now and I am still wide awake.
I'm calling into work tomorrow and I don't know if I have enough points to or not. When did I get suspended again? I really really really want to find a new job because I just can't pretend to care anymore.
I know all this stuff is trivial but I still let myself get super worked up over it.
It's times like this I wish I had some "fuck it". That's weed in case you were wondering.
Someone just pat me on the back and tell me I'm a good person.
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| I Can See Through You're Bullshit With My X-Ray Specs |
[14 Sep 2009|09:54pm] |
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I had jury duty today. It was fucking boring. I saw around from 8-2 then finally went into a room where lawyers asked us one by one (there were 40 of us) a whole bunch of dumb questions to see if we were bias. Then at around 5:30 they let me leave. Didn't even get picked after all that shit.
Came home and g'bd a couple swats, ate dinner and played guitar. Now I'm half way through a PBR 4-pack and finishing up District 9. I might watch some Cowboy Bebop next.
All in all today wasn't too bad.
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| Beat Me Till You Put Me In A Body Cast |
[08 Sep 2009|07:06pm] |
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The Lillingtons - Smart Ass |
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So I'm employed but it doesn't feel like it.
I didn't get scheduled this week and I didn't next week. I've been trying to pick up shifts from other people at work but most people are looking for hours like me. I have stuff for class to do but it's online and done in like 20 minutes.
I'm so fucking bored all the time.
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[25 Jul 2009|02:27pm] |
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Andrew Jackson Jihad - No More Tears |
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I feel like my time with Universal is almost up. I love all the people there and usually enjoy it but the rules and pay is really starting to get to me.
They have a point system there where if you call in 2 hours before your shift you lost 1 point, less than two hours you lose 2. To build points back up you need to not call in and not be late for one month. The first month you get half a point back then after that a full point.
I dipped down to 3.0 points awhile ago (2.0 is a suspension) and I went 3 months without calling in or being late to bring myself back up to 5.5 but then I got sick this week. Now, I open most days which is 8:30 am. I get up at 6:30 each morning to be in on time maybe a little early. But I woke up on a Wednesday sick and because I don't wake up more than 2 hours before my shift I lost 2 of my points when I called in. That's 3 months of perfect attendance in one day.
I'm making 7.58 an hour after working there a year and a half and I will not be getting a raise this December because they have been frozen for everyone at the company. That means I won't get another 25 cent raise (if that) until December 2010.
Right now I'm making just enough each week to pay my rent, buy food, gas, a bag of weed and maybe enough for a record or two. I'm usually broke by Tuesday. I get paid on Friday.
Theres no chance for me to move up at all and make more money because you need 8 points and the point system is so broken it's nearly impossible to make it back up to that.
I want to drop down to seasonal, work a couple days a month and keep getting free passes and whatnot and find another job. The problem is I don't have any I idea where to even look.
I don't want to go back to being unemployed but I'm afraid that if I drop status I'm not going to be able to find anything else.
All this on top of being sick is a bad combination.
FML.
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| Get Up Stand Up Line Up With The Rest Of Them |
[26 May 2009|02:21am] |
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It's funny how simple compliments can make your day.
Unintentional poker night with Box and Caleb was fun. I need to make it to the regular night soon.
I've been good to my word of my life changing post so far. I haven't bought any drugs (free is different), I haven't had an energy drink since then and I only had crappy Taco Bell once. I still need to get my biking resolution down, but I have been walking to corner stores and Publix.
Just found out that Chuck Ragan will be playing The Social on June 12th and I'm fucking stoked! I've never seen him solo but have been listening for a long time now.
Sometimes I forget how fortunate I actually am. A dude at work moved down to Orlando to be with his girlfriend and her kids (dumb, I know) and they have since broken up. He still lives with her because he can't afford to live on his own. That situation would really suck is what I'm getting at I guess.
Still waiting on that really cool girl though. As weird as it sounds, I'm not physically interested in a lot of girls these days unless I have some sort of connection with them. Maybe I'm crazy, or maybe I'm just real and everyone else is fake. I guess I'll never know.
If you wear a leg brace, you probably shouldn't be walking on top of washing machines talking about their scratches and dents.
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| Theres Nothing New About The Old Sound |
[19 May 2009|10:37pm] |
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Nerf Herder - Pantera Fans In Love |
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I'm trying something new.
No more energy drinks, much less caffeine.
More bike riding.
Much less drugs.
I've been having problems sleeping and have been becoming paranoid and sometimes depressed when I'm high.
I wanna live the life of a real vegetarian for at least a summer.
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[14 May 2009|12:53pm] |
I really hate when dreams I have involve me in things I wish I could forget.
They leave me wondering if she has those dreams too.
I need a change in my life or my mind is going to be stuck in the past forever.
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| I Sing Kind Of Flat I'm Not Really So Fat |
[24 Apr 2009|09:28pm] |
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NOFX - Herojuana |
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I love that everyone has a few bands (usually that you can count on one hand) that absolutely cannot do wrong.
For me and at least two other people that will read this, NOFX is one of those bands.
Do yourself a favor and download or buy their new album Coaster cause, shit, it's just fantastic.
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| Till You Feel So Fucking Burnt That You Just Sit Around |
[15 Apr 2009|11:39pm] |
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Coffee Project - You Always Wanted A Song, Right? |
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Things have been good lately.
I have been hanging out a lot while still working a bunch as well. It's weird, I haven't had a job where I was friends with everyone there before. Like friends that hang out and make plans to do things and shit. It makes it a lot easier to be on the clock for 40 hours a week.
The Tim stayed with me last weekend and that was rad. I need to get some time off to go chill up in Tally.
BTH is going to play with a band that has members of Less Than Jake and Rehasher in it. I know it doesn't sound crazy but I'm so stupidly psyched on it.
I really wanna buy season 3 of Venture Brothers but I don't have enough money and after this weekend alone I will probably be pretty broke.
Oh well, at least cheap beer exists.
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| Go Back To Your Powder Drugs... |
[02 Apr 2009|08:26pm] |
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Bomb The Music Industry - Stuff That I Like |
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Things have been pretty good as of late. I've been working a lot more and hanging out with people just about every night. I really enjoy where I am in life right now, which is cool to actually be able to say that.
My place is starting to look more like someone lives here. I've got posters up and need a hammer and nails to put up some art. I just need a kitchen table and chairs and a small chair/couch and I will be cold chillin'.
As much positivity as this is, it would still be cool to find a rad girl to hang out with.
That or getting Tim Flynn's ass on my couch.
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| I Thought About You All Too Much |
[18 Mar 2009|11:29am] |
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Bouncing Souls - Night On Earth |
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It's funny how time really has no effect on my emotional attachments (much to my dismay). I found my self laying in bed last night, drunk, letting my mind wander. Sort of wondering if anyone else was thinking about me in the same way. More often than not the answer is no, but I guess it makes the times that there is so much more worthwhile.
Why does my mind still entertain the idea of her. I haven't spoke to or seen her in a year yet if I were to get a phone call I would go out of my way to see her.
Maybe I'm just weak.
Or maybe I just don't know when to give things up.
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| Don't Question Speed Of Mutation |
[27 Feb 2009|10:17pm] |
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Why do I wake up feeling that I've lost something big
Why do I try to hold on to things that don't exist
I keep on asking myself what happened to that girl
They're moments that I make up
They're moments sweet and pure
Don't ever try to find something you left behind
Don't ever try to make a memory into something
Don't ever fool yourself it always disappears
Don't ever kid yourself
There's no girl of your dreams
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| My Life As Of Now |
[16 Feb 2009|09:34pm] |
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So since I last updated I've moved. I'm in an apartment across from Shenendoah Elementary school. In the back though, so I don't hear or see any stupid children. I'm still in the process of unpacking/moving furniture/getting situated but I like it a lot so far. I need a table and chairs and a few posters framed but then I think this place will be open for partytimeexcellent.
Universal is getting a lot harder to deal with each day. I would post all of my annoyances but because its almost impossible to explain without having to explain every little nuance of the job and I don't really want to bore whoever is actually reading this.
Oh well, at least I have my turntable set up in my living room for the first time ever.
That's pretty cool.
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| Still Buzzed From This Afternoon |
[02 Feb 2009|08:00am] |
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Less Than Jake - Summoning Monsters |
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I've fallen into the spring routine.
Classes are going good and I'm back to doing 8:30 - 1:00 two days a week. Frankly, it keeps me going to all of them. I've even got one with Mikey and Derek. Can't say how long it's been since I've had a class with friends in it.
Work has been slow lately. Like scary slow. Like I'm afraid of being laid off slow.
I'm really starting to appreciate my friends again. It really is the highlight of my day when I can just go sit and talk with Marcos for a few hours.
Someone posted a pic of Michael Phelps smoking weed. Hee hee.
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[27 Dec 2008|01:30pm] |
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Dillinger Four - C I V I L W A R
This is the best album of 2008. Do yourself a favor and buy it.
PRIMED SO METICULOUS, STRIPPED DOWN TO THE NUCLEUS
OF EVERYTHING THAT SICKENED ME
BEFORE I STARTED VIEWING THIS
I'VE READ IT IN THE GLAZE PAINTED VACANT GAZE
OF THIS SHELL OF A HUMAN BEFORE ME
WE THANK THE LORD FOR THE EGO
AFFORDED THE SHALLOW NOW
SUCH HANDSOME PROPAGANDA
TRULY BUSINESS ACCUSED OF SHOW
AND THEY'RE CUING THE APPLAUSE SIGN NOW
PRETTY LITTLE CASUALTIES
IN TEMPORARY TRAGEDIES
BORN FROM THE SAME PLACE, SELF-DOUBT GROWS
COLD AND HOLLOW, RED CARPET READY POSE
BUT AROUND HERE "DIVA" AIN'T MUCH OF A COMPLEMENT
CELEBRATE THE DISCERNING
DON'T QUESTION WHAT YOU'RE LEARNING
CRANKS THE VIOLIN 'CAUSE ROME IS FUCKING BURNING NOW
CULTURE SHOWN IN EFFIGY
PRESENTED AS "CELEBRITY"
LIKE TINY BOXES CRYING OUT "BELIEVE ME!"
BUT CAREFUL THERE, HONEY
CAUSE YOUR ROOTS ARE SHOWING NOW
SUCH HANDSOME PROPAGANDA
TRULY BUSINESS ACCUSED OF SHOW
AND THEY'RE CUING THE APPLAUSE SIGN NOW
PRETTY LITTLE CASUALTIES
IN TEMPORARY TRAGEDIES
BORN FROM THE SAME PLACE, SELF-DOUBT GROWS
COLD AND HOLLOW, RED CARPET READY POSE
BUT AROUND HERE "DIVA" AIN'T MUCH OF A COMPLEMENT
WHAT A CHERISHED MYTH OF MARKETING
PROPAGANDA WITH COMPLECTION SO CLEAR
TOMORROWS INSECURITIES PLAYFULLY DRAPED
IN THE SECOND-HAND STYLES OF NEXT YEAR
AND IT'S SO HARD TO LOOK AWAY
ALTHOUGH SOMEHOW HARDER YET TO STARE
THESE PICTURE PERFECT PAWNS ARE SALESMEN NOW
LIKE CARPETBAGGERS SHILLING THEIR WARES
AND IN REALITY I REALLY DON'T CARE
CAUSE ASSHOLE'S A FASHION THAT I NEVER COULD AFFORD TO WEAR.
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| Until All Your Friends Have Failed |
[21 Dec 2008|07:23am] |
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Another year gone another year older.
It's funny cause everything is so jam packed into the last few weeks of the year for me. It turns from "Happy birthday to merry Christmas to happy new year" way too fast.
It's not that I'm worried about being old, its that I'm worried about running out of time.
Maybe I'm just thinking too much too early in the morning, or maybe I'm finally starting to realize that the long running joke is actually on me.
P.S. Thanks for all the b-day wishes from everyone via facebook and text messages. I didn't respond to any because I was very hungover. Like the worse in years.
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